It's been nearly half a year since I arrived in the City. Half a year since I had to deal with annoying fangirls, My Melo, Kuromi, or being Usamimi Kamen.
I can't believe I'm saying this, but I would much rather put up with their annoying antics than what happens in this City. To be summoned as Usamimi would be more preferable than dealing with the drama here. I never realized how easy I had it before.
I feel utterly useless sitting in this apartment, even with the violin classes. Sebastian is not here to help, console, or advise me on what I should do next. If I were home, I would be working on projects, making new records, perhaps even dating. I've had many girlfriends over the years but they never mattered to me. It was just so they would continue to worship the ground I walked upon. But ever since the issue with Yumeno-kun, I haven't been interested in a relationship. My ego was severely damaged when she began dating that hapless twit, Kogure or whatever his name is. As much as I would like to blame him, I know all too well it is entirely my fault that she moved on.
... Heh, to think, the three women I ever had feelings for are untouchable. Just my luck?
Mn.. Which reminds me.. Even with my charms and allure, becoming friends with people is difficult for me. I never had a need for them before. I was always number one. All I needed was me, myself, and I. Now, thanks to Yumeno-kun teaching me about friendship, I have a small group of whom I actually refer to as such, and even then, they do not know much about me.
I do not like socializing either, unless it is needed. A concert, a party. Something that benefits my fame, my career, or my ego. Or that's how it used to be. Now I just prefer to be left alone.
But being alone and not talking won't solve my problems. ... It is very hard to admit that or to even speak of such things, so perhaps I should be thankful for today's curse.
Oh, yes. And I would appreciate if
you would stop heckling me about Usamimi. I'd like to see how you would deal with that situation if you were in my place.