Ikemen Beam ~ 115

[lonelyviolinist]

[Fail!Private]

Ugh. I have that erge to ramble. Damned curse day...

Oichi-hime, Kuromi, Yumeno-kun. Three women, three problems. I appear to have horrible luck. With Yumeno-kun arriving to the City, I feel as if the deities are mocking me. There is so many things I can't let her find out, yet the City makes that difficult sometimes. I... I don't know if I would want her to know about everything. The Dark Power, Usamimi, my relationship with Kuromi, her and that brunette brat... Finding out these things all at once would ultimately break her. I've hurt her too much in my time already...

Why, even after these years, must I still feel for her? I thought distancing myself would make the pain go away but it's still there. I promised Kuromi I would wait for her to return but with Yumeno-kun here, not knowing of her future, that gives me a chance to experience a relationship with her that I could never have back in my world.

But it's wrong, isn't it? I would be cheating on Kuromi. Why should that matter? I've betrayed and cheated on people before to get what I want in the past... But I ultimately know she isn't mine and was never meant to be.

... Yet it's easier saying that than sticking to that mindset.

I'm... sorry, Kuromi. You deserve someone better.


[OOC: Mmm, no inner monologue. He thinks this is private but thanks to the curse, it's not! Apologizes for the baaaw.]

Comments

[pinkikemenhero.livejournal.com]

And by wanting them both.

1/2

[mypace-musume.livejournal.com]

Not sure what to tell you, there. I mean, you might see Kuromi again, at least if you go back to your world. But it probably won't be the "same" Kuromi. Most people don't come back to the City after they've been gone as long as I assume she has... since she was gone long before I came here.

[mypace-musume.livejournal.com]

I won't blame you no matter which path you take, as long as you're honest with Uta. You're too young to promise your life to a relationship you won't be able to continue as such. But if that's how you feel, then that's how you feel.

[pinkikemenhero.livejournal.com]

[Poor boy honestly doesn't know what to think or do now]

...

[mypace-musume.livejournal.com]

Sorry. I feel bad for you, having your dirty laundry aired out in public, but I'm being nosy anyway.

[pinkikemenhero.livejournal.com]

It's fine. I... your advice is appreciated.