Ikemen Beam ~ 115

[lonelyviolinist]

[Fail!Private]

Ugh. I have that erge to ramble. Damned curse day...

Oichi-hime, Kuromi, Yumeno-kun. Three women, three problems. I appear to have horrible luck. With Yumeno-kun arriving to the City, I feel as if the deities are mocking me. There is so many things I can't let her find out, yet the City makes that difficult sometimes. I... I don't know if I would want her to know about everything. The Dark Power, Usamimi, my relationship with Kuromi, her and that brunette brat... Finding out these things all at once would ultimately break her. I've hurt her too much in my time already...

Why, even after these years, must I still feel for her? I thought distancing myself would make the pain go away but it's still there. I promised Kuromi I would wait for her to return but with Yumeno-kun here, not knowing of her future, that gives me a chance to experience a relationship with her that I could never have back in my world.

But it's wrong, isn't it? I would be cheating on Kuromi. Why should that matter? I've betrayed and cheated on people before to get what I want in the past... But I ultimately know she isn't mine and was never meant to be.

... Yet it's easier saying that than sticking to that mindset.

I'm... sorry, Kuromi. You deserve someone better.


[OOC: Mmm, no inner monologue. He thinks this is private but thanks to the curse, it's not! Apologizes for the baaaw.]

Comments

[songofdreams.livejournal.com]

Well... I...

[It felt wrong that he was being completely honest with her while she could choose what to say.]

I made a promise not to judge you and so I won't.

Jun told me she wasn't human, and I'm not entirely surprised it was Kuromi. You seemed to enjoy her company during the party. She's a beautiful girl, and she dances so well too.

Baku always said Kuromi was really a good girl.

If you'd much rather that I stay away so that you don't have to think about this situation we're in, then I will...

[pinkikemenhero.livejournal.com]

She was.. very well behaved when she was here. But she isn't from our world.

...

I don't want you to stay away.

[songofdreams.livejournal.com]

I know... Hunny-san said she was very nice to him too.

Are you sure about that? Because you really don't have to worry about me, Hiiragi-senpai... And I don't want to ruin your relationship with Kuromi either... or Oichi-hime for that matter...

[pinkikemenhero.livejournal.com]

I am sure. I will have to decide for myself what I will ultimately do, although Oichi-hime is out of the question.

[songofdreams.livejournal.com]

...ok. And I won't ask, don't worry.

Hiiragi-senpai is still the same, curse or not. I'm kind of relieved.

1/2

[pinkikemenhero.livejournal.com]

... She's married.

[pinkikemenhero.livejournal.com]

.. Still the same..?

1/3

[songofdreams.livejournal.com]

[Here Hiiragi, have an audible facepalm. Only you can't hear it, because this isn't audio. Shame, really.]

[songofdreams.livejournal.com]

Well, I might be wrong, because I realized how much I don't know about you, but...

[songofdreams.livejournal.com]

I always thought you as someone who's determined... because how else could you have won so many competitions in the past?

[pinkikemenhero.livejournal.com]

My skills are much easier to handle than my emotions.

[songofdreams.livejournal.com]

I'm pretty sure a lot of people feel the same way...

And Hiiragi-senpai..?

[pinkikemenhero.livejournal.com]

Yes?

[songofdreams.livejournal.com]

Just promise me you'll chose whatever makes you happy, ok?

[pinkikemenhero.livejournal.com]

[ghrkh, oh Uta.]

... Alright.